The Loner

Sober. No alcohol for quite a while. No socials. And they say that no man is an island?

But it is mental.

I feel like I’m going to lose my mind. Am I capable of becoming an introvert? For someone who’s always been a gatherer. Someone who’s always been outgoing. It is hard.

This is my dip. The filter. The awareness.

The realization of things.

I am not hard to love. It was hard for me to accept love. And the more that I am learning to accept things and let go, the lighter it feels.

My knee still hurts. My chest still heavy. Mind exhausted.

But keep going on. Keep building one at a time. Keep going to the gym. Keep talking to mum. Keep sober.