One thing that I have learned from doing a shadow work is that it is effin’ difficult to do alone.
No validation. No outside motivation. No rewards. No compliments. No sympathies.
Everything needs to come from the inside. Everything I need, I have to build or create for myself.
But got to admit, this one’s soo damn diff.
There are times when I just want to give up and get back to doing things that are easy.
Why do I need myself to go through all this?
Why pain? Why solitude?
Because I know that I can do it.
That despite everything that has happened, a few people have seen something precious in me.
And I need to see that myself. I need to discover that.
And that’s why I have to survive through all this. Stop tapping out. Man up.