Today, I went to play billiard with friends. And I wish I could hug them tighter without being too obvious. I’m drowning and I badly need someone. People. Friends. I’m trying to be strong. But within is a void that’s…
Today, I went back to the gym. It has been 2 months since I properly lifted weights. And this morning, at 5:30, I went to the gym with Raph. I never considered going to the gym where he went because…
She gave me this devotional a few months back. And I have not really opened it for quite some time. I was afraid. Always been. And there’s so many things that was stopping me from opening this book. And for…
One thing that I have learned from doing a shadow work is that it is effin’ difficult to do alone. No validation. No outside motivation. No rewards. No compliments. No sympathies. Everything needs to come from the inside. Everything I…
And just like that, I’m an empty vessel. I think everything has made me realized one thing, a deep desire to become someone better. I would always focus on how I would feel. What about me. That I need to…
Those are one of the kindest words I have ever heard. Smiling. While holding a glass of water. Standing in my favorite spot. Waiting for sunrise. Even though I know that it’s still 2 hours away. And like waiting for…
I feel dumb. That a single-word question has left me blank. What’s my purpose, really? It feels like I have lived my life on an autopilot for quite a long time. Waiting for things to happen. Waiting for the universe…
Sober. No alcohol for quite a while. No socials. And they say that no man is an island? But it is mental. I feel like I’m going to lose my mind. Am I capable of becoming an introvert? For someone…
I can’t even do one. And that’s exactly what I have been obsessing for the past couple of days. Rummaging through a number of articles and videos online, I can’t help myself but wanting to do at least 5. Not…
The struggle with becoming better is always mental. There will be critics. Hurdles. And all other things that are just out of your control. But what’s more important are the voices within. For the past few weeks, I have only…